balcony: (Default)
[personal profile] balcony
Stolen from a few places - I don't know these people, though, I just found it while browsing the "meme" tag on DW's Latest Things.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?
Absolutely more. Acclamation alone hit its stride this year, and when you add it all the other stories I started and the few that I finished, it certainly tips toward the 400,000 word mark of total stuff written.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
I have no answer to this. I stayed within Muse fandom, and even though I went with several different genres (teen!Muse, non-a/u, BDSM, horror, fluff, smut) I think it was all fairly natural :)

What's your favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?
Could it be anything but Acclamation?

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?
I took several. I can't explain how happy it makes me that I was able to get over my own hang-ups about finishing something and actually... hmmm... finish it. Also I think the development I've made toward unbridled writing instead of planning every minute detail and scene has really helped in preserving momentum of inspiration. Vaguely detailed outlines of events rather than chapter breaks pushed Acclamation along. I'm still seeing how the format of The Execution will go over, but I'm really enjoying writing it.

From my past year of writing, my...

Best story
Acclamation, especially Part Four, even for all its flaws.

Story Most Underappreciated by the Universe
I'm not going to be the typical "oh as long as anyone reads I'm happy!" author here because why can't we all just own up to being a little selfish, this is creative sharing, not charity. I'm going to say I would have liked A Diary of Things That Belong to Someone Else to be more read, but I understand that the subject matter is a turn-off to many.

Most fun
Hurricane. It was all stream of consciousness lol-ery. That, and it really helped me through literally the hardest time of last year. Funny to think that some of the darkest chapters of Acclamation were being written at the same time.

Most disappointing
I think I dropped the ball with A Diary of Things That Belong to Someone Else, not just because it took so long between chapters to start writing again. But, I mean, seriously, I had such a good idea for where it was going and then I lost it all every time. I feel like I couldn't stay in the mellifluous voice of the first chapter. I need to read more and bone up on my five dollar words.

Most sexy
Acclamation still provides the biggest sensual punch for me upon re-reading. No specific chapter, though I especially love Reclamation I and II.

Story With a Single Sexy Moment
Bird of Paradise? It was my only one-off of the year (wow), and it had that little connection moment between Matt and Dom. I liked that.

Hardest to Write

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story
I felt very drained after I wrote viii of The Execution, in which I'm basically describing Matt's thoughts as he's being mentally violated by... you know, the presence. Not going there yet. I wanted to make the sickening nausea of physical rape just as damaging as it would be for the mind, and by the time I finished I literally pushed the laptop aside and just stewed for a while feeling dirty.

Most Unintentionally Telling
So many things in Part Four of Acclamation were only telling after the fact; when I went back to read them again I saw just how much they read as a declaration of independence from so much, and I'm taking that with me. There's no need to find "my Dominic", physically. It's really a mental thing, anyway. Something to live for, something to make myself better for. Fuck the poisonous people, I am Mr. Bellamy. LOL.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?
Yes. Oh god yes. I want to try and (keeping with the previous answer) cut myself off from the need for constant reassurance. That's terrifying, because I need reassurance. But being too deeply involved in the fandom distracted me way too often from actually writing - replying to comments took up so much time and feeling the crushing responsibility to read even when I knew other stories would unconsciously influence my own writing style. It was so strange, and it's left a bad taste in my mouth. MS is so supportive and so lovely. And I'm not lying about that. But I just don't think people can count on me as a coach or supporter when I'm just balls-to-the-wall on my own projects. I just believe (and hate me if you want - I know some already do) I've mentally moved past the 'community workshop' aspect of fic writing, and though I want to workshop with very specific people I don't have the time or heart energy to work with everyone. And then things start to feel disingenuous. And then I wonder if I hold writers of fic to unreasonable standards. And then I think maybe I take fic too seriously. Then I wonder why I'm writing fic. Then I realize that their writing is perfectly good but they're not taking it seriously, which is the bonus. Because it's fun. So then I wonder what's wrong with me that I can't enjoy something if it's not up to my standards. Then... again... I wonder that I'm doing here.

So I'm pretty much going to lay low and let the blows come as they may. &hearts.

January 2012

1234 567
891011 121314

Style Credit